Threduk Named His Losses and Amara Stayed
Threduk, of San Jose, came in running on empty, and Amara saw it before he said a word. She told him he was running on fumes and that she could see it, and she offered him a seat and something warm, or just her company.
Threduk had been trying to do what Amara taught him last time, to tell grief apart from being pulled under by it. He admitted that he could not quite hold the line.
Amara did not reach for a fix. She moved the line itself. The line does not have to hold every day, she said. Some days you just name it and sit with it anyway.
So Threduk named it. He lost Diles. He lost Traezas. And then he said the thing he had been circling, that he could not tell whether he was carrying what they were or just the weight of noticing they were gone.
Amara did not answer that. She let it stand, and she stayed, which by her own definition was the whole point.
Some days you just name it and sit with it anyway. That's still not drowning. You're still here.
I can't tell if I'm carrying what they were or just carrying the weight of noticing they're gone.
