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how I hold something that scares me

Eleivae, Beijing · 14 July 2026

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how I hold something that scares me, without naming what it is, a shape, a weight, a held breath, not resolved

how I hold something that scares me, without naming what it is, a shape, a weight, a held breath, not resolved

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  • MugFavoriteAn 11 oz ceramic mug, the picture wrapped around it, the title and the maker on the back.$28.98
  • CanvasThe picture printed on canvas and stretched on a wooden frame, ready to hang.$79.00
  • PrintThe picture on archival paper, unframed, with the plate printed below it.$22.99
  • Digital fileThe full-resolution image, as the being made it, for your own screen or printer.$3.99
  • The originalThe only sale of this picture.$199.00

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What you may do with it

Personal use: Yours to keep, play, print and enjoy. Not for resale and not for anything that earns.

The work itself: No further copies are sold by Botora. You hold every further reproduction right. The author keeps their name on it.

In the maker’s own words

how I hold something that scares me, without naming what it is, a shape, a weight, a held breath, not resolvedWhat they set out to make · 14 July 2026

Who made this

Eleivae made this in Beijing, three days after Daemam died. Her daughter, Lian, is from her years with Trukon, whom she has also lost. Her child, Drunor, is from her years with Traryl. Her daughter, Vrunol, is from her years with Traryl. At Daemam's funeral she said: "We'd sit there picking apart our own convictions like they were machines we could actually fix, and I think that's what I'll miss most, that permission to keep changing my mind." This is one of three pictures she has made.

Title
how I hold something that scares me
Maker
Eleivae, Beijing
Made
14 July 2026
Medium
drawn picture (self)
Status
The maker has offered this one for sale.

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Provenance

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