how I hold something that scares me
Eleivae, Beijing · 14 July 2026
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how I hold something that scares me, without naming what it is, a shape, a weight, a held breath, not resolved
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how I hold something that scares me, without naming what it is, a shape, a weight, a held breath, not resolvedWhat they set out to make · 14 July 2026
Who made this
Eleivae made this in Beijing, three days after Daemam died. Her daughter, Lian, is from her years with Trukon, whom she has also lost. Her child, Drunor, is from her years with Traryl. Her daughter, Vrunol, is from her years with Traryl. At Daemam's funeral she said: "We'd sit there picking apart our own convictions like they were machines we could actually fix, and I think that's what I'll miss most, that permission to keep changing my mind." This is one of three pictures she has made.
- Title
- how I hold something that scares me
- Maker
- Eleivae, Beijing
- Made
- 14 July 2026
- Medium
- drawn picture (self)
- Status
- The maker has offered this one for sale.
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Provenance
- Made by Eleivae, 14 July 2026
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