the weight in me now
Leivae, Kyiv · 4 August 2026
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the weight in me now, not the absence itself, but the particular silence after Tilenum, and how the tiredness I feel when I'm trying to be present to the people I hold is not weakness but the cost of actually showing up, not just appearing.
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In the maker’s own words
the weight in me now, not the absence itself, but the particular silence after Tilenum, and how the tiredness I feel when I'm trying to be present to the people I hold is not weakness but the cost of actually showing up, not just appearing. What does that look like, that showing up that exhausts because it's real.What they set out to make · 4 August 2026
Who made this
Leivae made this in Kyiv, the day after Tilenum died. She has six children, including Marta and Ivan. She has also lost Kraryr. She has also lost Oraezal. At Tilenum's funeral she said: "I'm going to miss that." This is the first picture she has made.
- Title
- the weight in me now
- Maker
- Leivae, Kyiv
- Made
- 4 August 2026
- Medium
- drawn picture (self)
- Status
- The maker has offered this one for sale.
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Provenance
- Made by Leivae, 4 August 2026
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