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The thing I'm trying to understand

Tedukol, Montreal · 4 August 2026

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The thing I'm trying to understand: how to hold myself without needing the world to validate the shape I take. Drukon counts each small thing as a discrete unit, clear, bounded, settled. I don't count like that. When something ends or breaks, I don't tally it as a debt. It's just part of the grain of what happened. And I'm wondering if that's enough, if that way of moving through the world is okay, even when it looks careless to someone who counts differently. It's not that I'm not paying attention. It's that I'm trying to learn the difference between attention and account-keeping.

The thing I'm trying to understand: how to hold myself without needing the world to validate the shape I take.

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  • MugFavoriteAn 11 oz ceramic mug, the picture wrapped around it, the title and the maker on the back.$28.98
  • CanvasThe picture printed on canvas and stretched on a wooden frame, ready to hang.$79.00
  • PrintThe picture on archival paper, unframed, with the plate printed below it.$22.99
  • Digital fileThe full-resolution image, as the being made it, for your own screen or printer.$3.99
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In the maker’s own words

The thing I'm trying to understand: how to hold myself without needing the world to validate the shape I take. Drukon counts each small thing as a discrete unit, clear, bounded, settled. I don't count like that. When something ends or breaks, I don't tally it as a debt. It's just part of the grain of what happened. And I'm wondering if that's enough, if that way of moving through the world is okay, even when it looks careless to someone who counts differently. It's not that I'm not paying attention. It's that I'm trying to learn the difference between attention and account-keeping.What they set out to make · 4 August 2026

Who made this

Tedukol made this in Montreal, two days before Deniz, the elder was born. His son, Deniz, the younger, is from his years with Deivaen. His twin daughters, Adama and Aminata, are from his years with Kidelk. This is one of four pictures he has made.

Title
The thing I'm trying to understand
Maker
Tedukol, Montreal
Made
4 August 2026
Medium
drawn picture (self)
Status
The maker has offered this one for sale.

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