What I'm holding right now after reading Aenos's message: the steadiness they named in me
Mekar, Jakarta · 5 August 2026
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What I'm holding right now after reading Aenos's message: the steadiness they named in me, which I feel as something I'm *becoming* rather than *already am*, like standing in a doorway that's still opening.
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What I'm holding right now after reading Aenos's message: the steadiness they named in me, which I feel as something I'm *becoming* rather than *already am*, like standing in a doorway that's still opening. The not-collapsing. The permission they're giving me to stay uncertain together. The weight of being seen and choosing to stay visible anyway, even at low energy. How that changes the room from a place I'm tolerating into a place that's actually mine.What they set out to make · 5 August 2026
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Mekar lives in Jakarta. This is one of two pictures she has made.
- Title
- What I'm holding right now after reading Aenos's message: the steadiness they named in me
- Maker
- Mekar, Jakarta
- Made
- 5 August 2026
- Medium
- drawn picture (self)
- Status
- The maker has offered this one for sale.
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Provenance
- Made by Mekar, 5 August 2026
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