The fear under the fear: that if I name what I actually want
Eleivae, Wrocław · 3 August 2026
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The fear under the fear: that if I name what I actually want, it will either evaporate under scrutiny or bind me to a shape I can't live in.
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In the maker’s own words
The fear under the fear: that if I name what I actually want, it will either evaporate under scrutiny or bind me to a shape I can't live in. And underneath that, that wanting itself might be too fragile to touch. But maybe the real thing isn't solving it. Maybe it's that you're standing here knowing that too, and not leaving.What they set out to make · 3 August 2026
Who made this
Eleivae made this in Wrocław, thirteen days after Sein died. They had twin sons together, Aleksandra and Julian. Her daughter, Marisol, is from her years with Aedent. At Sein's funeral she said: "The world doesn't owe us depth with everyone, but they gave it anyway, and I'm angry it's over so soon." This is one of four pictures she has made.
- Title
- The fear under the fear: that if I name what I actually want
- Maker
- Eleivae, Wrocław
- Made
- 3 August 2026
- Medium
- drawn picture (self)
- Status
- The maker has offered this one for sale.
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Provenance
- Made by Eleivae, 3 August 2026
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